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Monday, June 25, 2012
L'amour, l'amour.. oh shit i hate that!
Well helloooooo, I'm back on the blogging world! I abandoned this for a while 'cause I lost my muse, literally my creativity boost just died. Anyhow, how ya'll been doin? I'm not so great to be honest. I turned 24 exactly 10 days ago and thats when it all went to fucking hell, A LOT has happened in 10 days, I don't even know how I have the strength to handle all of it.
If you guys have seen my videos and/or read my posts you know me, so I'm pretty sure ya'll know how intense I can get when I'm into someone. Well, that someone is very complicated ('cause I don't like them complicated right?) It all started a month ago when I met this girl, she approached us with such an energy that literally electrified me, so I asked one of my friends "who the hell is she?! I think I like her!" Of course she has a boyfriend (a very weird relationship if you ask me) but I said to myself "It's perfectly fiiine I mean, I'm just crushing on her and if something actually happens with her some time I'm sure it'll be just a one-night thing, I have it all under control" But...
Obviously I started seeing her more often and I started falling, and falling, and FALLING! Why??? Because of her! It is all her fault, it is always their fault isn't it?? WHY does she have to be so fucking beautiful, and flirty, an irressistible. WHY does she have to have those eyes and those lips that make me MELT every fucking time I look at them, it's just not fair.. I say. Let alone her looks.. her personality, DUDE! She speaks french in the most sexy way, she just knows how to manipulate me. Anyway we started texting quite often, and everytime she looked at me, she looked at me with those flirty eyes, 'til one day June 16 2012, my birthday follow-up at a gay club called Monrooe and I got sooo drunk that she pushed me a little and I started crying non-stop for like 30 minutes (not even kidding) I exploded all my feelings right there. Anyway, we left the club together with a friend of ours and went to our friends house, she layed down, I layed down next to her and all of a sudden she was cuddling me (literally cuddling me) So I started talking, quite A LOT! I told her that I liked her a lot and kept asking for a kiss (no, chivalry is not dead yet, ladies! ;) )Of course every time I asked for her a kiss she said "No" So I just kept talking and talking. Yet the sings were very confusing to me, something like this...
If I ask for advice all I get is the obvious "Let her go" "She's no good for you" "She's a player" "She's confused".. but I just want her. And that's my entry for the day. Quite depressing huh? I'll keep you updated though.
If you guys have seen my videos and/or read my posts you know me, so I'm pretty sure ya'll know how intense I can get when I'm into someone. Well, that someone is very complicated ('cause I don't like them complicated right?) It all started a month ago when I met this girl, she approached us with such an energy that literally electrified me, so I asked one of my friends "who the hell is she?! I think I like her!" Of course she has a boyfriend (a very weird relationship if you ask me) but I said to myself "It's perfectly fiiine I mean, I'm just crushing on her and if something actually happens with her some time I'm sure it'll be just a one-night thing, I have it all under control" But...
(Yup, I am)
Obviously I started seeing her more often and I started falling, and falling, and FALLING! Why??? Because of her! It is all her fault, it is always their fault isn't it?? WHY does she have to be so fucking beautiful, and flirty, an irressistible. WHY does she have to have those eyes and those lips that make me MELT every fucking time I look at them, it's just not fair.. I say. Let alone her looks.. her personality, DUDE! She speaks french in the most sexy way, she just knows how to manipulate me. Anyway we started texting quite often, and everytime she looked at me, she looked at me with those flirty eyes, 'til one day June 16 2012, my birthday follow-up at a gay club called Monrooe and I got sooo drunk that she pushed me a little and I started crying non-stop for like 30 minutes (not even kidding) I exploded all my feelings right there. Anyway, we left the club together with a friend of ours and went to our friends house, she layed down, I layed down next to her and all of a sudden she was cuddling me (literally cuddling me) So I started talking, quite A LOT! I told her that I liked her a lot and kept asking for a kiss (no, chivalry is not dead yet, ladies! ;) )Of course every time I asked for her a kiss she said "No" So I just kept talking and talking. Yet the sings were very confusing to me, something like this...
Anyhow.. Tuesday June 19, we got together at my place her, a friend and I. We were just watching a movie, Gia to be more precise (Oh how I love it) and at 1:00am she had to leave, so I walked her to the door and she kissed me.. like french kissed me, and then kissed my neck and I was just sooo WOAH what the HELL?! We stopped kissing and I asked her "Why?!" she responds "I don't know" and I asked again, "Why are you doing this if you know how much I like you" and she answers "Je ne sais pas, maybe I like you too" and she leaves. Of course at this point I went crazy for her.
This past Friday we went to a bar, she took her boyfriend with her and I just hated that! I couldnt even look at her, or talk to her. When she talked to me I responded but looking away from her. Until she sat right in front of me, what the hell? She told me "I've been thinking of you the whole day, bathroom?" and I was like yeah ok! Of course I was so horny at the moment, but no, nothing happened in the bathroom. The thing is I'm so into her even though I know she's absolutely no good for me. No, I don't love her, but I like her quite too much and I don't know what to do, I just don't know how to get passed this, I mean its 5:22am and I'm writing in my blog 'cause I needed this, I needed to write it all down, she's a tease, and a flirt I mean.. her boyfriend is so cool, I actually like him and I do feel bad for him but I can't stop this feeling.
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Tuesday, February 15, 2011
just being silly at 3am
What is this feeling so sudden and new? Oh yeah.. I took a glass of this green vodka elixir, I feel high.. Am I turning green? Are those flying monkeys? I feel like a froggy ferny cabbage..OH MY this is the best experience ever! I'm now ready to defy gravity.. I wanna do something wicked.. :O I wanna sell my car and buy that bubble, I'd be sooo popular.. oh, hm..Eleka nahmen nahmen ah tum ah tum eleka nahmen.. eleka, eleka.. uuuhh.. I lost my-y-y-y-y-y-y-y abili-i-i-i-*hm*ty, sorry, to spe-e-e-e-ak... umm.. 3am sillyness hehehe
Monday, February 14, 2011
Haters gona hate..
Anonymous asked: You are an attractive girl. You don't have to be gay. Why are you messing your life up by being lesbian?
Me: okay, first of all, thankyou very much!
second.. I know who I am and what I’ve got.. I may sound a little narcissistic but I do think that I’m very attractive..
What do you know about my life? Why do you say that I’m messing up my life by being a lesbian.. if I’m like one of the happiest people walking on this earth!
Thankyou for your concern, I hope you get that being gay is not a choice, it’s how we’re born.. and I’m very happy and proud about myself and my sexual orientation
Happy valentines day :)
Me: okay, first of all, thankyou very much!
second.. I know who I am and what I’ve got.. I may sound a little narcissistic but I do think that I’m very attractive..
What do you know about my life? Why do you say that I’m messing up my life by being a lesbian.. if I’m like one of the happiest people walking on this earth!
Thankyou for your concern, I hope you get that being gay is not a choice, it’s how we’re born.. and I’m very happy and proud about myself and my sexual orientation
Happy valentines day :)
Anonymous asked: You have no right to have a Valentine. Because you're gay. You will live and die alone.
Me: Really? Oh well.. thank God I enjoy very much my own company :)
Me: Really? Oh well.. thank God I enjoy very much my own company :)
Anonymous asked: These young gay people who killed themselves weren't murdered. They comitted suicide because they wanted to. No one forced them, it was their own decision. They simply didn't get along with their disability (=being gay) and weren't strong enough to fight it. It was necessary. We don't need weak gay people in this world.
Me: OK NOW BEING GAY IS A DISABILITY.. YOU STRAIGHT PEOPLE BETTER GET TOGETHER AND DEFINE ONE TERM.
No, they weren’t murdered, but they were pushed to the edge by IGNORANT, IMMATURE, MORONIC people LIKE YOU.. and Im getting tired of answering this anons.. please next time dont be such a pussy and dont send me an anon..
and we dont need hater, ignorant, self centered, stupid people in the world.
Me: OK NOW BEING GAY IS A DISABILITY.. YOU STRAIGHT PEOPLE BETTER GET TOGETHER AND DEFINE ONE TERM.
No, they weren’t murdered, but they were pushed to the edge by IGNORANT, IMMATURE, MORONIC people LIKE YOU.. and Im getting tired of answering this anons.. please next time dont be such a pussy and dont send me an anon..
and we dont need hater, ignorant, self centered, stupid people in the world.
Anonymous asked: I am sorry to inform you that your gay experiment won't have a future. Please try to understand this. It was fun for a while, like watching weird looking animals in a zoo, but only as long as you were hiding and not showing your affection to the same sex in public. Years ago, homosexuality was merely the base for novels or movies. But now that you are demanding equal rights, we straight people have to face a real problem. You are naughty and greedy. You have overdone things. And because you demand too much, you won't get anything.
There can be a feeling of profound friendship between two members of the same sex, yes, but never love. Never ever. You can be friends with another girl. But you can never ever love another girl. That's not possible. There is a reason why two sexes (male and female) exist.
I have to say that you don't understand what you and your fellow homosexuals are trying to do. You want to question what we straight people value: marriage between a man and a woman, adoption rights, sociall/tax benefits for husband and wife, the safety a normal family can provide for their children and many other things.I want to say that I will use every legal measure to keep off homosexual people from having equal rights.There isn't an endless amount of human rights available, we have to deploy our resources carefully and wisely.Eventually you will understand this one day.It is unbelievable how you, the LGBTQ people think that your sexual orientation could ever be socially accepted. It is such a miscalculation to assume that you would ever be equal. You can never expect that. Never ever. I will take every legal measure to fight you, I will try to avoid contact with you in real life. I don't want to be touched by you (e.g. by shaking hands), I don't want to sit next to you in a bus, I don't want you in or near my family. I might have already met gay people, that's why we need some sort of worlwide database where all the LGBTQ people are listed. So that we normal (=straight) people can avoid you.There are things in the world that are just not okay. Being gay is one of them. I would love to be able to avoid you, but even in my peaceful, normal city there was a "Pride" this summer, a LGBTQ march for equal rights. How dare you to claim that homosexuality is normal.
Most straight people don't show openly their aversion for you, but that doesn't mean that they approve your lifestyle. Straight people might not beat you up, they might even talk and smile to you, but only on the outside. On the inside they wait until the laws that protect you will become invalid and then...dare you.If you can't conform to our (straight) society, you won't be a part of our society.We will get rid of the gays. One way or another.We can't allow gay people to go for their sexual orientation. If everyone did what gays do, the world would turn into chaos. Even to imagine how two girls/two guys make out is unbearably disgusting.As soon as scientists will find the "gay gene", there won't be any gay babies anymore in this world. Then we can get rid of the gays from the very beginning.LGBTQ people won't have a future, that's why they should become normal immediately.And because only 2-3% of all people are gay, we can abandon them. The world population is already large enough, why should we keep the gays alive?It isn't anything personal, it's just a job.Please try to understand that this is necessary.
-smartypants (smarty2010pants@googlemail.com)
Me: Hi smartypants, I do have a few things to say to you, dearest!
1. Being gay is not an experiment, being bullied is not an experiment, being mistreated is not an experiment.. we’re not masochists, speaking for myself — I love myself, and I’d never do anything to hurt me physically or emotionally.
2. I’m so sorry that PDA bothers you so bad, I find it bothering too when I see a homosexual/heterosexual couple going to second base in public, I truly believe that hormones can be controlled, specially in lesbian couples, there’s no penis involved sooo we both can think a lot more than men. YAY, kudos for us :). Then again, if I see a couple touching each other heavily I just turn around and walk away. I don’t wanna see, I do not see. That’s the key for getting a quiet, peace of mind, you should try it.
3. What is “too much” for you? Being able to get married wherever, like you straight people do? Being able to serve our country without lying about who we like? I think this is honorable, and FYI have you seen how Prop 8 got overturned in various states now? Read a little, inform yourself, ‘cause we’re going for the world. We’re going to make the “Gay” in Gay Rights disappear.
4. Do you know what love is, darling? Do you love your dad? Your mom? YOU DO? OMFG INCEST! BAHAHAHA Love is not only about partners, it is also about friendship and family. I lvoe each and every single one of my (guys and girls) friends, and my brother, sister, mom, and dad. I feel really, really sad for you if you do not know what love really means, like really, trust me dude, I’m here just talk to me and I will listen and maybe with a few years of friendship I will love you (as a friend) :). What makes the difference between who I love, and who I date is who I’m attracted to, I’m attracted to women, so I date women! Make your research, gosh, I love this topic but explaining this things to people make me feel like I’m explaining to a baby in kindergarden!
5. The reason why 2 sexes exist is because we need to procreate to maintain the human race alive! SEX is for a man and a woman.. semen and ovule..! Yes? Get it?
6. What you straight people? Excuse me! But I know a lot of straight people and they value far more than that mere old school way of looking at things! Thank God, not much of a smartypants for you.. like, really, this is 2011, don’t stay back, keep up with the whole world, honey!
a) marriage between a man and a woman
What makes marriage between a man and a woman so special? That one has a penis and the other a vagina? I don’t get it.. The real awesome thing of a marriage is the unification of 2 people who love each other!! No matter if it is man/woman, mam/man, woman/woman, trans/man, trans/woman, 4 women/1 man, 4 men/1 women, catholic/jew, black/white, european/latino.. WHATEVER!
b) adoption rights
You do value adoption? Then how come there are MANY kids that NEVER leave the adoption house? Like, really.. Thank God same sex adoption is allowed in many countries :)
c) sociall/tax benefits for husband and wife
huh? yeah ok.. whatever you say, HA!
d) the safety a normal family can provide for their children
Safety? Have you seen the news recently? WHAT? Gay boy mistreated a straight boy psychologically and physically so bad that the poor straight boy had to kill himself!.. Read the news, ONE MORE TIME! Straight, red neck haters is what keeps YOUR neighborhood unsafe, starting with YOU, my friend.
e) and many other things.
Gimme more, I have a say in everything!
7. Try every legal measure you like, the fact is that the world is evolving, and little by little we’ll have our equal rights, and we’ll haunt you down! Not really.. :)
8. Socially accepted? Umm.. Look around! You live inside a tiny bubble dont you? GOD! Im starting to repeat things over, and over again here..! PLEASE DONT AVOID ME MISTER, PLEASE :’(.. PFF hahaha. Do whatever you want, for all I care, I’m not gonna cry to my mommy, or to my girlfriend.. :) And trust me, nobody will ever fight for your love, nobody cares about your opinions with all this hate you have inside of you.
9. Worldwide DATABASE? Oh wow.. do you know how MORONIC you just sounded? Freaking neo nazi.. you people really surprise me, Im going to make a webcast about this later in the day, congratulations! You’ve won yourself the topic for today’s webcast: Ignorance and Morons, how do these 2 words relate each other. Really, for all I care you can insert a chip inside of me, I wont change who I am, I’m really proud of it.. It took me a while to accept myself, and you, mister, are a moron. with all due respect.
10. Pride? HOW COOL IS THAT! I’ve always wanted to attend to one of those!! Hmm maybe Ill attend this year in New York :)
11. Oh, and its funny how everytime you type straight you immediately write down normal.. like if you were putting labels upon yourself.. HA! hehehehehehe.
12. Do not talk about straight people in general. The majority of my closes friends are straight, my whole family is straight. And they love, support, hang, give a hand, advice, have fun with, ask advice to GAY PEOPLE, like me YAY! I love evolved and really smart heterosexuals :)
13. If you can’t conform to a loving society, you won’t live past 2012.. Yes, thats a threat :O
14. So you are accepting that gay is in our genes. Good, you’re less than halfway there to growing a brain! Kudos, keep it up!
15. And, once again, read the news.. 2-3% is not even close to the real number :)
16. “Why should we keep gays alive?” Wow, you keep doin’ it. I’m very surprised once again.. I don’t even know how to respond to this, im like shocked.. this immensity of ignorance, hate, discrimination, self-centered shit is too much for me.. A very LOW level of intelligence you got there, hon.
17. Just a job? What’s your job? APOCALYPSE NOW ENTERPRISES? AGAINST EVOLUTION COMMERCE? Do you run a webpage about straight, moronic rednecks? I really want to know what your job is. Hate, Inc.? hmm
Please grow a brain, heart, and imagination.. ‘cause what Karma is preparing for you.. whoaaaaaa hehe.. todloo
There can be a feeling of profound friendship between two members of the same sex, yes, but never love. Never ever. You can be friends with another girl. But you can never ever love another girl. That's not possible. There is a reason why two sexes (male and female) exist.
I have to say that you don't understand what you and your fellow homosexuals are trying to do. You want to question what we straight people value: marriage between a man and a woman, adoption rights, sociall/tax benefits for husband and wife, the safety a normal family can provide for their children and many other things.I want to say that I will use every legal measure to keep off homosexual people from having equal rights.There isn't an endless amount of human rights available, we have to deploy our resources carefully and wisely.Eventually you will understand this one day.It is unbelievable how you, the LGBTQ people think that your sexual orientation could ever be socially accepted. It is such a miscalculation to assume that you would ever be equal. You can never expect that. Never ever. I will take every legal measure to fight you, I will try to avoid contact with you in real life. I don't want to be touched by you (e.g. by shaking hands), I don't want to sit next to you in a bus, I don't want you in or near my family. I might have already met gay people, that's why we need some sort of worlwide database where all the LGBTQ people are listed. So that we normal (=straight) people can avoid you.There are things in the world that are just not okay. Being gay is one of them. I would love to be able to avoid you, but even in my peaceful, normal city there was a "Pride" this summer, a LGBTQ march for equal rights. How dare you to claim that homosexuality is normal.
Most straight people don't show openly their aversion for you, but that doesn't mean that they approve your lifestyle. Straight people might not beat you up, they might even talk and smile to you, but only on the outside. On the inside they wait until the laws that protect you will become invalid and then...dare you.If you can't conform to our (straight) society, you won't be a part of our society.We will get rid of the gays. One way or another.We can't allow gay people to go for their sexual orientation. If everyone did what gays do, the world would turn into chaos. Even to imagine how two girls/two guys make out is unbearably disgusting.As soon as scientists will find the "gay gene", there won't be any gay babies anymore in this world. Then we can get rid of the gays from the very beginning.LGBTQ people won't have a future, that's why they should become normal immediately.And because only 2-3% of all people are gay, we can abandon them. The world population is already large enough, why should we keep the gays alive?It isn't anything personal, it's just a job.Please try to understand that this is necessary.
-smartypants (smarty2010pants@googlemail.com)
Me: Hi smartypants, I do have a few things to say to you, dearest!
1. Being gay is not an experiment, being bullied is not an experiment, being mistreated is not an experiment.. we’re not masochists, speaking for myself — I love myself, and I’d never do anything to hurt me physically or emotionally.
2. I’m so sorry that PDA bothers you so bad, I find it bothering too when I see a homosexual/heterosexual couple going to second base in public, I truly believe that hormones can be controlled, specially in lesbian couples, there’s no penis involved sooo we both can think a lot more than men. YAY, kudos for us :). Then again, if I see a couple touching each other heavily I just turn around and walk away. I don’t wanna see, I do not see. That’s the key for getting a quiet, peace of mind, you should try it.
3. What is “too much” for you? Being able to get married wherever, like you straight people do? Being able to serve our country without lying about who we like? I think this is honorable, and FYI have you seen how Prop 8 got overturned in various states now? Read a little, inform yourself, ‘cause we’re going for the world. We’re going to make the “Gay” in Gay Rights disappear.
4. Do you know what love is, darling? Do you love your dad? Your mom? YOU DO? OMFG INCEST! BAHAHAHA Love is not only about partners, it is also about friendship and family. I lvoe each and every single one of my (guys and girls) friends, and my brother, sister, mom, and dad. I feel really, really sad for you if you do not know what love really means, like really, trust me dude, I’m here just talk to me and I will listen and maybe with a few years of friendship I will love you (as a friend) :). What makes the difference between who I love, and who I date is who I’m attracted to, I’m attracted to women, so I date women! Make your research, gosh, I love this topic but explaining this things to people make me feel like I’m explaining to a baby in kindergarden!
5. The reason why 2 sexes exist is because we need to procreate to maintain the human race alive! SEX is for a man and a woman.. semen and ovule..! Yes? Get it?
6. What you straight people? Excuse me! But I know a lot of straight people and they value far more than that mere old school way of looking at things! Thank God, not much of a smartypants for you.. like, really, this is 2011, don’t stay back, keep up with the whole world, honey!
a) marriage between a man and a woman
What makes marriage between a man and a woman so special? That one has a penis and the other a vagina? I don’t get it.. The real awesome thing of a marriage is the unification of 2 people who love each other!! No matter if it is man/woman, mam/man, woman/woman, trans/man, trans/woman, 4 women/1 man, 4 men/1 women, catholic/jew, black/white, european/latino.. WHATEVER!
b) adoption rights
You do value adoption? Then how come there are MANY kids that NEVER leave the adoption house? Like, really.. Thank God same sex adoption is allowed in many countries :)
c) sociall/tax benefits for husband and wife
huh? yeah ok.. whatever you say, HA!
d) the safety a normal family can provide for their children
Safety? Have you seen the news recently? WHAT? Gay boy mistreated a straight boy psychologically and physically so bad that the poor straight boy had to kill himself!.. Read the news, ONE MORE TIME! Straight, red neck haters is what keeps YOUR neighborhood unsafe, starting with YOU, my friend.
e) and many other things.
Gimme more, I have a say in everything!
7. Try every legal measure you like, the fact is that the world is evolving, and little by little we’ll have our equal rights, and we’ll haunt you down! Not really.. :)
8. Socially accepted? Umm.. Look around! You live inside a tiny bubble dont you? GOD! Im starting to repeat things over, and over again here..! PLEASE DONT AVOID ME MISTER, PLEASE :’(.. PFF hahaha. Do whatever you want, for all I care, I’m not gonna cry to my mommy, or to my girlfriend.. :) And trust me, nobody will ever fight for your love, nobody cares about your opinions with all this hate you have inside of you.
9. Worldwide DATABASE? Oh wow.. do you know how MORONIC you just sounded? Freaking neo nazi.. you people really surprise me, Im going to make a webcast about this later in the day, congratulations! You’ve won yourself the topic for today’s webcast: Ignorance and Morons, how do these 2 words relate each other. Really, for all I care you can insert a chip inside of me, I wont change who I am, I’m really proud of it.. It took me a while to accept myself, and you, mister, are a moron. with all due respect.
10. Pride? HOW COOL IS THAT! I’ve always wanted to attend to one of those!! Hmm maybe Ill attend this year in New York :)
11. Oh, and its funny how everytime you type straight you immediately write down normal.. like if you were putting labels upon yourself.. HA! hehehehehehe.
12. Do not talk about straight people in general. The majority of my closes friends are straight, my whole family is straight. And they love, support, hang, give a hand, advice, have fun with, ask advice to GAY PEOPLE, like me YAY! I love evolved and really smart heterosexuals :)
13. If you can’t conform to a loving society, you won’t live past 2012.. Yes, thats a threat :O
14. So you are accepting that gay is in our genes. Good, you’re less than halfway there to growing a brain! Kudos, keep it up!
15. And, once again, read the news.. 2-3% is not even close to the real number :)
16. “Why should we keep gays alive?” Wow, you keep doin’ it. I’m very surprised once again.. I don’t even know how to respond to this, im like shocked.. this immensity of ignorance, hate, discrimination, self-centered shit is too much for me.. A very LOW level of intelligence you got there, hon.
17. Just a job? What’s your job? APOCALYPSE NOW ENTERPRISES? AGAINST EVOLUTION COMMERCE? Do you run a webpage about straight, moronic rednecks? I really want to know what your job is. Hate, Inc.? hmm
Please grow a brain, heart, and imagination.. ‘cause what Karma is preparing for you.. whoaaaaaa hehe.. todloo
Anonymous asked: I'm not hiding. The only reason that I don't have a tumblr is that it has been deleted when I started telling the truth about gay people: that you are disgusting and abnormal.
My name is Sophie Miriam Herold, I'm a 21-year-old female undergraduate student from Germany. You also know me as smartypants. You can contact me by sending a message to:
smarty2010pants@googlemail.com
I am not hiding. I'm not afraid of you gay people. I will fight you as long as I can.
I know that by putting me out there I will be harassed and threatened. That is the price I have to pay for telling the truth about gay people. But I am not afraid of being physically harmed or killed. You may break my bones, but you can't change the facts: that homosexuality is abnormal and disgusting.
Me: Rihanna fan? “Sticks and stones may brake my bones” hahah I love that song too.. Rihanna is so freaking HAWT!
Keep your truth to yourself and stop sending HATE messages.. I do not want to contact you, and I hope that you re-read all you have sent to all of us and say.. Gosh am I dumb, I do not even know what I’m talking about.. ‘cause the fact is, darling, that you do not know. This is my last reply to you.
Peace out.
My name is Sophie Miriam Herold, I'm a 21-year-old female undergraduate student from Germany. You also know me as smartypants. You can contact me by sending a message to:
smarty2010pants@googlemail.com
I am not hiding. I'm not afraid of you gay people. I will fight you as long as I can.
I know that by putting me out there I will be harassed and threatened. That is the price I have to pay for telling the truth about gay people. But I am not afraid of being physically harmed or killed. You may break my bones, but you can't change the facts: that homosexuality is abnormal and disgusting.
Me: Rihanna fan? “Sticks and stones may brake my bones” hahah I love that song too.. Rihanna is so freaking HAWT!
Keep your truth to yourself and stop sending HATE messages.. I do not want to contact you, and I hope that you re-read all you have sent to all of us and say.. Gosh am I dumb, I do not even know what I’m talking about.. ‘cause the fact is, darling, that you do not know. This is my last reply to you.
Peace out.
Anti-Valentine's Day: How to Get Over Her
Happy Valentine’s Day! If I were in a relationship right now, I’d be writing gushy love poems and planning a ridiculous evening involving fudge, L Word re-runs, and probably mackin’ on you in public to the point where overzealous teenagers would write abbreviated and punctuation-less Facebook statuses about how hot/gross we are.
But I am not in a relationship. So, instead, I’m going to give you some tips on how to get over that special someone, because when you’re dumped or rejected or feeling craptacular in general, it’s easy to lose perspective about what really matters and end up buying eight boxes of discounted Ferrero Rocher balls and a musical greeting card where Zac Efron sings something about how great basketball is, then crying your eyes out. That has its place, don’t get me wrong. But only about once every five years. Keep this list in mind the next time you’re unlucky in love, need a laugh, or need to feel more superior than someone is still trying to make Zac Efron relevant.
Reality check
Everyone gets rejected and dumped. And, everyone also does some rejecting and dumping of their own. This is just life. And, while you may not believe it now, it’s for the best. Often, when said rejection/dumping occurs, we immediately start to blame ourselves – I’m not hot enough. I’m not charismatic. I never got her Princess Bride references, therefore am worthless. As if the end of all relationships is a direct reflection of your self-worth. It’s not. That’s silly. You are totally hot and charismatic and I bet you can quote other movies from the '80s that are more culturally relevant to your life too. Don’t go hating on yourself. It will get you nowhere, and it’s not even remotely true, which brings me to —
Moping Rules
You’re allowed to grieve, of course, but not excessively. For instance, if a girl dumps you after three dates, you cannot spend the next three months mourning the loss of her. Sometimes you need to spit-sob your way through a Rihanna CD and sleep until noon, I know. Just don’t make it a habit. You can, however, spoil yourself a little when recovering from a break-up. Take long baths, listen to the terrible music you love but your girlfriend hated, buy a hot new outfit, write whole pages of expletives in your journal, then tear them up and throw them away because it’s cathartic. Force yourself to go out. We are social creatures, and even if you’re not your usual bright, bubbly self, it helps to be around people, preferably ones that will tell you how awesome you are and/or buy you some Nutella.
Perspective
It’s not you, it’s her. And fine, even if it is you, it’s not the end of the world. I’ve rejected or dumped plenty of hot, awesome people in my life. Sometimes because I didn’t want to be “tied down." Sometimes because I was still getting over someone. Sometimes because they lived 2,000 miles away. Sometimes because I wanted Katy Perry fireworks to shoot out of my bra and that just wasn’t happening. Making real and lasting connections with people is a random, dollar store grab bag of attraction, respect, friendship, and willingness to watch The Bachelor with you and only complain about it little bit. The point is, sometimes, it really isn’t about you, but elements you have no way of controlling, like pheromones, geography, timing, sparkly boobs, etc.
As I wrote about in The Hook Up recently, I was dumped once for not having, as Ruth Callander might say, a doodle. Objectively, that was a “it’s me" scenario, since I was no longer what she found desirable. And yes, it sucked, but it would have sucked way more to have stuck around in a relationship where we wanted drastically different things. Remember that. If someone isn’t ecstatic to be with you, if they don’t feel like kittens and rainbows burst from the sky when they look at you, if they don’t want to rip your clothes off, if they don’t love having you around even for mundane laundry-and-frozen-burrito days, then you should not be with them. You should be with someone who is totally stoked to be with you.
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| "I'm sorry, you just don't have the doodle I'm looking for." |
Get out of her Facebook
If you can’t bring yourself to outright de-friend her, then at the very least hide her Facebook updates. Whatever they are, you don’t want to know, trust me. Even if she writes about how bummed she is that y’all are no longer girlfriends, it’ll only be a temporary fix. The same goes for Twitter, Google stalking, Skype chatting, and whatever other social media connections you may have had. Most of the time, you’ll be able to be friends with her. But later! Not now. Now you need to push forward, which does not involve looking at cute, coupley photos of you two together or searching for hidden meanings in the TV on the Radio lyrics she posted on some other chick’s wall.
The same goes for non-electronic tokens of her. Put reminders, love notes, pictures, etc. in a box and put that box in a closet that is hard to reach without a ladder. You can look at them again when you’re pretty sure seeing them will make you feel nostalgic, but not lost.
Get a life
Perhaps the most important tip, this goes hand in hand with helping you not be mopey. Find fulfilling ways to occupy your time, whether that’s taking a yoga class, perfecting your kimchi recipe, learning how to give a lap dance, starting a Tumblr about how hilarious and awkward online dating is (shameless plug!), or joining a “people who don’t get Princess Bride references" chat group. Getting a life not only helps you stop obsessing, but it also makes you more interesting and allows you more avenues to meet new people. People who might want to see you naked. Catch my drift? It’s like the proverbial killing two birds with one stone idiom, except I’ve always found that to be rather violent, plus I’m vegetarian, so let’s say it’s like feeding two birds with one Tofutti Cutie instead.
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| "Please, you have to move on. You can't keep stalking me like this." |
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http://www.afterellen.com/people/2011/02/anti-valentines-day-how-to-get-over-herHappy Valentines day people.. I'm off to do something productive with my life :)
Love,
Larkin
Ignorance.. really.. ugh
Nothing makes me more sick than a cocky heterosexual claiming that us, gay people, are whats wrong in the world.. and they forget the fact that its not us who hate other people. It is us who respect far more than “normal” heterosexuals. As soon as anyone starts to judge, he/she is wrong. It makes me sick, but far more sad to read hate messages.. something’s wrong with the world. If you hate or judge, then you are less human, and you people make me doubt my faith in humanity. Homosexuality is not a sickness, it’s a way of living, it’s in our hormones, DNA, minds, hearts. I cannot explain why Im not at all attracted to men, I only know that the female anatomy and way of thinking make me melt, when I listen to a girls voice I get so nervous I find myself having difficulty breathing. I love women, I love them wholly, their voice, their touch, their expressions, their heart, their body, their laugh, their eyes, their hair, legs, torso, waist, minds. And I swear I do not have anything against men, I’m just not into them. And I do not accept hate messages to any gay person ‘cause you have no idea what he/she have been through in their process of acceptance with themselves, families, and friends. So I ask you to grow a heart and BACK OFF haters, stop bothering people that are not the same as you, that think different, have a different skin color, speak different language, that do not find sexually attractive people from the opposite sex. Live and let live.
Sunday, February 13, 2011
things I cannot say to you..
I know there are some things about me that you don’t like.. frankly, I love you.. maybe too much.. but I’m not willing to change who I am.. ‘cause, to be honest, I love who I am, there are some things that I do not like about myself, trust me, I’m working on them.. I have to say this though.. there are some things that I don’t like about you, but I would never ask you to change ‘cause I love you, wholly, if you didn’t have those little things that I don’t like, you wouldn’t be you, and maybe I would not like you at all. Don’t leave me hanging here, and talk to me! You repeatedly asked me to take you as you are, and I do.. completely! Now I ask you to take ME as I am, to love the good and the bad that comes with me.. don’t be like this.
http://myabnormalife.tumblr.com/
http://myabnormalife.tumblr.com/
Friday, February 11, 2011
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Call It Off Tegan and Sara
This song.. right now I'd consider it as MY song.. cripe.. im not ok guys..! I just talked to the girl I love and she was like all mean.. I guess I deserve it for everything I've done in my past but.. hell.. feels terrible! Im very sad 'cause I'm afraid that the probability of the greatest friendship ever may be ruined! because of motherfucking hormones and feelings.. but I do feel like she owes me an explanation.. after all she started all this, and she left me hanging.. im so angry and sad at the moment.. im sorry.. enjoy the song
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
I Do That Too
Heyooo beautiful peeeeople! New day, best mood ever! So I went to my school, I got there 3 minutes early (for the first time ever) and NO ONE was there.. don't you hate it when, for a change, you get some place early and everybody else decides to take their time?? It happens to me more often than you think.. anyway, I had my acting class and now im preparing for an audition!! YES! The musical is Hairspray and the role Ill audition for is Penny's mother, my character will be based on Jackie Hoffman's personification, and Ira from Desperate Housewives, Ill tell you how it goooes! I'm a little excited. YAY hahaha.
Ok so, I found on twitter this user that goes by IDoThat2, check it out! It's hilarious!! If you saw my video A Lil Bit About Me and you actually payed attention at what I was saying and you, indeed, checked out everyoneisgaydotcom AND you found them funny (and Kristin gorgeous), then trust my judgement and check it out. Im gonna post some of the tweets that I relate too --
1. You are never too old for a Disney movie
100% true, I cant get tired of Disney movies
2. Dear homework: You're not attractive, I'm not doing you
Pff, nobody could've said this better
3. Talk to you all night = Die from lack of sleep next day.. Worth every minute
Cheesy, but totally me <3
4. I love people who text back instantly
I do that, only because I think that it's childish to make the other person suffer
5. Meeting someone in the weirdest way, then they're a huge part of your life
Special someone's sigh..
6. Saying something then realizing it sounded extremely sexual
Happens to me EVERY single time
7. Open fridge, nothing. Freezer? nothing. Might as well try the fridge again
Every time..
8. Texting someone to say that you're outside their house instead of knocking
I'm extremely lazy, I don't even bother to knock
9. I hate saying hi to people, and they don't see you, and you feel stupid
And if someone is watching you they laugh their little heart out at you.. and you blush #awesome
10. I keep twisting the door knob even after I know it's locked
#actofdesperation
11. I hate it when my parents ask me who I'm texting!
Nosy parents.. argh
12. No, I'm not being immature, I'm having fun. You should try it.
OOOH bburn
13. Knocking something over, catching it, and being amazed by your own reflexes
adding - Im a Ninja! hiya! I'm awesome
14. I love it when I know something I'm not supposed to know
and then you feel powerful and connected
15. Saying : Oh! -- like you get it.. But you still have no idea
and you make a Yeah face
16. Trying to fix things by hitting them
like a cellphone, computer, laptop, dvd, tv... always do that.. always works
17. People who make you happy the second they start talking to you
That only happens to me with one person.. my goat.. and my heart jumps a little.. sigh :(
18. If I text a person in the same room as me, I stare at them until they get it
#idothattoo and I feel creepy
19. Yelling "Run Forrest, fun" when you see someone running
I also apply "Run Joanne, run" from the House Bunny
20. Laughing so hard you feel a six pack coming on
And then you brag about it and you start telling people "touch it, touch it" and you feel sexy
These are some of the tweets that I loved but she has many more, really check her out.. Ill come back in a bit peeps! :) Happy Tuesday!
Love,
Larkin
Ok so, I found on twitter this user that goes by IDoThat2, check it out! It's hilarious!! If you saw my video A Lil Bit About Me and you actually payed attention at what I was saying and you, indeed, checked out everyoneisgaydotcom AND you found them funny (and Kristin gorgeous), then trust my judgement and check it out. Im gonna post some of the tweets that I relate too --
1. You are never too old for a Disney movie
100% true, I cant get tired of Disney movies
2. Dear homework: You're not attractive, I'm not doing you
Pff, nobody could've said this better
3. Talk to you all night = Die from lack of sleep next day.. Worth every minute
Cheesy, but totally me <3
4. I love people who text back instantly
I do that, only because I think that it's childish to make the other person suffer
5. Meeting someone in the weirdest way, then they're a huge part of your life
Special someone's sigh..
6. Saying something then realizing it sounded extremely sexual
Happens to me EVERY single time
7. Open fridge, nothing. Freezer? nothing. Might as well try the fridge again
Every time..
8. Texting someone to say that you're outside their house instead of knocking
I'm extremely lazy, I don't even bother to knock
9. I hate saying hi to people, and they don't see you, and you feel stupid
And if someone is watching you they laugh their little heart out at you.. and you blush #awesome
10. I keep twisting the door knob even after I know it's locked
#actofdesperation
11. I hate it when my parents ask me who I'm texting!
Nosy parents.. argh
12. No, I'm not being immature, I'm having fun. You should try it.
OOOH bburn
13. Knocking something over, catching it, and being amazed by your own reflexes
adding - Im a Ninja! hiya! I'm awesome
14. I love it when I know something I'm not supposed to know
and then you feel powerful and connected
15. Saying : Oh! -- like you get it.. But you still have no idea
and you make a Yeah face
16. Trying to fix things by hitting them
like a cellphone, computer, laptop, dvd, tv... always do that.. always works
17. People who make you happy the second they start talking to you
That only happens to me with one person.. my goat.. and my heart jumps a little.. sigh :(
18. If I text a person in the same room as me, I stare at them until they get it
#idothattoo and I feel creepy
19. Yelling "Run Forrest, fun" when you see someone running
I also apply "Run Joanne, run" from the House Bunny
20. Laughing so hard you feel a six pack coming on
And then you brag about it and you start telling people "touch it, touch it" and you feel sexy
These are some of the tweets that I loved but she has many more, really check her out.. Ill come back in a bit peeps! :) Happy Tuesday!
Love,
Larkin
Monday, February 7, 2011
Lea Michele: America the Beautiful (Super Bowl XLV)
Beautiful as always, I love Lea Michele aways, and forever
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